I haven’t done any blogging in the last few weeks. For those who have actually been wondering what the heck I’ve been up to, here’s the nitty gritty…
Back in January 2016, when David Bowie passed away, I blogged about how his death had motivated me to finally start working on a horror / sci-fi novel I’d been planning out in my head for the previous few years. Well, I had a lot of trouble staying focused on it, and I ended up only writing about 50 pages over the past five years, which is a really horrible pace at which to be going.
The problem I kept experiencing was that when I was planning this novel out in my head the scenes played out like a movie. However, whenever I sat down to write, I had a tremendous amount of difficulty finding the right words. The sequences that followed effortlessly in my mind were excruciatingly difficult to type out in the word processor.
I guess that I kept expecting that if someone was a good writer it would go like this…
And for me, instead, it has always been like this…
So what happened? Well, Supreme Court Justice Ruth Bader Ginsburg died on September 18th, only a month and a half away from the Presidential election. I just knew that I was going to be waking up to an absolute shit-storm on the internet.
I finally sat down and started working on my novel again on September 19th because was desperately trying to avoid the news and social media. I already had all the info I need to vote, so I didn’t see the benefits of getting extremely depressed by things that are totally beyond my control. I thought if I focused on my writing I could get out of my head and try to accomplish something for myself.
That morning it took me about three and a half hours to write five pages. I felt so slow. I’ve been told that I am a good writer, but it doesn’t come easily to me. Usually it’s like pulling teeth. So I went on Facebook and posted about this, asking if any other creative types have this problem.
I was reassured when a lot of people responded with encouragement, including several published writers with impressive lists of credits to their names. They assured me that, yes, writing can often be very difficult, and writing five pages in under four hours is actually very good.
Most people encouraged me to try to work on my fiction every day, to write something, even if it was only a few sentences. I’ve been trying to do that, and except for one day I’ve been successful. I’ve managed to write a little under 40 pages in the last two weeks, which is definitely much better progress.
So that’s what I’ve been busy with. As my friends advised, some days the writing comes very easily, and others it’s extremely difficult. But I’m trying to stay in that daily routine. I have no idea if what I am writing is any good, but at least I am making the effort.